i'm SCARED !
i wonder what is LOVE call now . i wonder what's the real defination of it . i wonder what what & what's that . why LOVE kills people . why LOVe can be force ? ha ! i really don't know . it sound really scary . but , i don't know lah . lazy talk about it alr lah !

i really don't understand . i had great time yesterday . yes , despite me crying in the morning. amanda was cute enough to ask , st you wake up alr? i say i was not sleepy ! ._.ll lols ! hmmms, kay. planned to meet ben earlier but end up didn't because i was on phone & i went out late ? ha ! C: sorry ben ! & yeap ! on phone & text later . sigh , i really don't know what to do . yah. you wanted a breakup. reason being : he want me to concentrate on studies / don't want see me get in trouble with my parents / get back the life i used to have . haha ! i don't know . if you think with all those will make me & you happy then i respect your decision bahs . C: i really don't wanna think at that point of moment. just got to get everything done for bbq ! :D okay , then was to buy things . & yes , haha ! gay house . done . out . thomson plaza with hafidz & jeerapak . (we ate donuts before going back ! (: shhhh ) kay , then bernice place . kay, pool & yah . bbq . ha , thankyou hafidz ! (: really great to have you as friend ! haha! gay too ! say no soccer really never play! (: i love 2e1 ~ (: they are really lovable. kay . 3phones were gone due to water ! whoops ! sorry chunjing ! kay , then janice wasn't by my side this time . kind of feeling weird but , nah it's okay (: she can't be by my side all time what ! haha ! kay , then me & hafidz went out get better charcoal back . because etc etc lah! gosh , i having gastric ! zzz . didn't eat much . thou make yet not i eat ._.ll kay neverminds . 5-6 meals alr . nah ! forget it . get over it yaw ! (: kay , enjoyed. janice was late . so , haha! zhengyi never turn out ._.ll okay . neverminds ! 2e1 you people rock yaw ! <3 kay, end-ed & heading home .

sorry gay , & thankyou . i really can't tear in your mama's car . i really feel very down. i was thinking bout him . & yah . i suddenly miss him a lot . well , neverminds . i'm seriously sorry .

guys , esp gay & kaifeng ; nobody is to blame bout not eating well for bbq ! pls , don't need refund some money lah ! fork out a lot alr . no need pay back le lah! GAH !